Asiong32 Turns 3
“He is worried. He has no job. He has no money. He has no friends. He has no hope. He gives up. He takes the bus. The bus goes to a bridge. He gets off the bus. He looks around. He breathes deeply. He walks onto the bridge. It’s a high bridge. He looks down at the water. It is a long way down. Someone approaches him. He sees his friend.”
I was reading this passage to one of my students in an online English school were I work and the tears started falling… And then my student asked, teacher why are you crying? I was speechless.
Two or three months ago, I have thought about jumping off a bridge. But I saw my friend…his name was JESUS.
pictures taken in Bataan and Zambales
“Alone at the bus terminal. Fighting the cold. Waiting for the dawn to come. Spending the last drop of hope I have left. My eyes are half closed now. I wanna go HOME now.”
Many times I found myself sleeping at a bus terminal. I found comfort, shelter and refuge when I had nowhere else to go. Pretending to be one of the passengers. Watching people come and go. Trying to convince myself that everything’s gonna be alright.
“I love sunsets and sunrises. I always find myself chasing the sun. Every afternoon I sit beside the seashore. Waiting for the sun to set. Waiting for the sun to kiss the sea. Waiting for that perfect moment. Waiting to say goodbye. What a sad way to die. And then from now on…for each and every setting or rising of the sun you will remember me. You will all remember me.”
This was the suicidal note I wrote three months ago. I was lost but now I’m found.
“I was giving up. I would have given up – if a voice hadn’t made itself heard in my heart. The voice said '”I will not die. I refuse it. I will make it through this nightmare. I will beat the odds, as great as they are. I have survived so far, miraculously. Now I will turn miracle into routine. They amazing will be seen everyday. I will put in all the hard work necessary. Yes, so long as God is with me, I will not die. Amen.”
ASIONG32 TURNS 3
TO GOD BE THE GLORY!
I have thought about quitting blogging for so many reasons but because of my readers and followers…quitting is not an options.
salamat sa inyong lahat. pasensya na po kung di ako makapagblog hop.