Friday, February 15, 2013

a personal post 2

A Personal Post 2

HI,
MY NAME IS ASIONG
IM A MANIC DEPRESSIVE and I hate myself.
 YEARS AGO I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH A UNIPOLAR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER.
 A CERTAIN TYPE OF MENTAL ILLNESS.
 BUT IM not CRAZY.
 Im just sad and lonely.
 im just sad all the time.
 and my sadness doesn’t go away.
 it sticks around for days,
weeks, months and years.
 a visitor that doesn’t want to leave.
 its like a parasite.
 it drains you, consumes you, eats you. . .
 taking every little bit of strength, courage and confidence in you.
 it will take away even the last drop of hope in you.
 it poisons you
paralyzes you
weakens you.
 and eventually kills you.
 and you will realized that it sucks to be you.
 everybody hates you.
and then you hate you.
 but he will befriend you and you will become inseparable...

this is an auto post.
by the time you're reading this, I'm already dead.
i already had enough. i'm giving up and now letting go.
Asiong32 is now signing off!

THIS WAS MY SUICIDAL NOTE OR SUICIDAL POST THAT WAS NEVER FINISHED OR WAS NEVER PUBLISHED. BY THE TIME I WAS ALMOST ABOUT TO GIVE UP. GOD SPOKE TO ME SEVERAL TIMES. GOD USES A LOT OF PEOPLE ALONG THE WAY AND NOW I'M A BELIEVER.

IM IN GOOD HANDS NOW. IM FINE AND I FEEL BETTER. I MAY NOT HAVE ANYTHING RIGHT NOW BUT I AM HAPPY. I NEVER FELT THIS HAPPY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. 

I JUST WANNA SAY THANK YOU TO EVERYONE. GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

PHOTOS TAKEN A FEW DAYS BEFORE MY SUICIDAL ATTEMPT.

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PHOTOS TAKEN MORE THAN A WEEK AGO. PROOF THAT IM STILL ALIVE.











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16 comments:

  1. You know, you have so much talent and you shouldn't waste by trying to commit suicide. I've hard my fair share of suicidal attempts. They're all failures because I was thinking of my family all the time, how would they live after I die? Will they blame themselves for not loving me enough?

    But I'm glad you found your happiness! :)

    anyways, ganda ng pics!!! kakainggig lang, when I can buy my own camera, I shall post awesome photos just like this!

    stay strong Asiong (rhyming words :P )

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  2. nakuuuuu, buti tinigilan mo yang attempt-attempt na yan =)
    embrace life!
    keribels natin lahat ng sadness at stress sa buhay!

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  3. astig tlga pre ng mga shots mo tlgang unang tingin mo p lng my emotion un pix. galing kahit wlang suicidal note sa taas eto p rin comment ko.
    just see my other side on you.

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  4. The suicide post troubled me really, I don't know why you were that sad, but I'm so glad you've found God and He made you change your mind. Keep your faith, dear!

    BTW, I love clouds!

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  5. Mabuti naman at OK ka na...God Bless you tol... :)

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  6. in god you'll indeed find safety,
    in the most difficult days
    in the most effective ways
    he will always be there!
    im so glad that you find your peace with him

    this is such a moving post parekoy!
    god bless you,

    by the way ganda ng shots mo! lalo ung 5th

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  7. GOD is the only way ika nga. And im glad u found him in your heart :-)

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  8. Dont lose hope parekoy ha? Time is too short kaya dont mak it much more shorter. Lahat naman tayo may prob pero walang suko suko ha.. God is always there. Smile for us!

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  9. aw pare, nakak-relate ako sayo, madalas din ako sad... pero wag magsuicide ha? hmmm.. hihihi xD cheer up! life is beautiful kahit mas maraming sadness in life.

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  10. dont loose hope,.,lahat tyo me problema kanya kanya lang ng paraan sa pag solve,lahat tayo nalulungkot pero me mga bagay na makakapagpasya sa atin na di natin inaasahan,.,dont quit

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  11. Stunning and gorgeous photos.. love it.. galing galing..

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    Kampai!

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